I am sitting amidst a lot of chaos at the moment. I am trying to pin down the chaos in the form of words. I am rambling. This is an excerpt from a mail I wrote to a few of my gems.
I deleted almost everything on this computer. Old mails, favorite songs, and photographs. I wrote goodbye mails to the few friends I made. I made a mental note to call up my boss, who is on leave, tonight. I collected the relieving letter. I felt guilty of a couple of professional white lies I told this morning.
I went to the library upstairs and took in the musty odor. The librarian was missing. I left the membership card with her assistant. I took a cup of coffee and went outside. Its raining. Funny weather for March. I made a call to V. Told him a light anecdote from work. I text messaged R.
I cleared my desk. I handed over now-irrelevant data to the rest of the team. I smiled at the fake bye-byes that were told. I have prepared a draft of a fake bye-bye I will be telling them. I will shoot the mail at four-thirty. Not leaving much time for them to react and reply.
I took out all the colorful flowers and suns and moons that my niece had made for decorating my office space. I tore off the nametag on my seat, while my co-cubby looked on. She is too new to miss me. I am too old to remember her. I gave her some of the colorful stuff for keepsakes. I wished for a few of the old people to be around. Just so that I can say a REAL goodbye.
I am killing time on my last working day, in my first REAL job.
Life is Beautiful.